I feel . . .

I feel like I'll never get over this. I find myself crying at the oddest times, but mostly when I'm all alone. I still don't feel like going out or talking to anyone. I still see the images of my little girl in my head. And as much as I know that nothing will change, nothing will ever change all I keep thinking about is if only . . . All I'm doing is driving myself crazy, but I can't help it. I'm so filled with pain. How am I supposed to go on like this? Will I ever smile again? Will I ever truly laugh again? How am I supposed to get past this? I feel so alone in my grief. I feel like everyone around me expects me to be okay. But I'm not and I don't think I'll ever be okay. I have to put on this brave face when deep inside I'm screaming and crying. I just don't know how I'll go on . . .